-sigh- and the story goes like this
brringg brinngg brinng bringg
me: hello?
m: heyy babe its mel
me: yeah i can tell by yur voice whatsup?
m: can u come at 6 today i got so much shit to tell you
( me getting anxious to think if it might be a response to my blogs)
me: uhm im not sure if i can come early ill see cos havent finished theory
m: okies ill meet u there at 6 then
-hangsup-
i get there at 6 she gets there at 615
we sit down then she starts to tell me the important thing
babe, i got suspended
yeahh i kinda mel since yr name on msn is SUSPENDED :@
okayy so this nd this happened
then u denied it was yur fault
it effing is yur fault
you control yur mind, yur body
you grabbed the knife
passed it around
of course its yur fault
not entirely but it still counts
okay so he
threatens a poor yr 7 kid pretending to stab him with the knife
then gives it to you
nd the knife gets passed around
then anthony got in trouble
then he dobbed you nd others in
you know what
not my prob yur rents are giving yu the silent treatment
i would even want to give u it
now since yur in trouble grounded nd suspended
yur getting people to meetup after suspension nd bash the kid?
i cnt believe u deny its yur fault
u couldve not take the knife
someimes i wonder if u even have a brain
yur lucky u only got grounded
you would have no idea what my rents wouldve done if i got suspended for any reason
especially something involving a knife
i never knew yu would this type of person
i knew yu were bad, rebel, FULL TB typpe
cnt u jst admit u were involved
nd i cnt believe they only suspended you for 3days
if i did that i wouldnt be happy with 3days
i should be expelled!
whats going in yur mind?
new topic:
heres our convo right after that one
me: yu gtta stop smoking
yu see people smoke they hold the cig packets in their hands
nd u see on the packet
yeah everysingle pice of that shit has a warning to it
a picture an image writing
what smoking thispacket will cause you
theres something called emphasima, lung cancer, heart cancer, stroke , etc
including death later on
m: babe look im not gnna stop smoking for you okaayy?
its jst something i cant stop nd will not stop
me: okay in yur mind yu prob look at the packet thinking
oh they jst put all that up there for our entertainment
its all bullshit?
m: yeahhhh of ocurse it is
one, im not telling you to quit for me, im telling you to quit for yur own guud, dont want my advice? yur life is fucked
two, if a packet of cigs is better than me, dont call me babe it has no meaning might as well call me loser id feel much better
three, there is no word to describe you
its like
hi im melinda
nd my purpose in life
is to get fucked nd have a fucked up life
alcohol, smoking, liking badass drugdealer guys
yeahh noy my type of friends
sure i have heaps of types but
yur not counted
after all this
i dont want anthying from you
after class
you: JOANNE! wait for mee!
yeah i wait stood there what did u do ?
nothing
u jst wanted for me to wait with you for sharon
then left me alone while tlking to sharon
doesnt really hurt me anymore since
its been happening every week& im used to it
+ names like babe, baby, darling, sweetie
it doesnt mke me feel better
call me
ugly, loser, loner, bitch, slut,whore
its equivalent to babe, etc
think im weird?
go ahead
i know yu wont read this becos youve changed to blogspot to tumblr
i dont think i care about you anymore
# ` Mel,this is for yu as well as those other blogs. +
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Tomorrow would be one week sincei wrote those blogs to you mel,
Yes i can actually mention yur name now
since its been one week
So that means
Yes, im not important enough for yu to read my blogs
as i check everday jst to see if yu wrote something back
or maybe yu dont even realise yu have my blogspot
But still, i dont need to be a good friend, bad friend, a close friend for yu to read
Why cnt yu jst check with all the clues i sent out
is it not enough for yu to figure out?
like youve done nothing wrong
how can i face yu every week knowing yur gnna leave me behind
yeah one thing
our tutor starts at 7
i come at 6
just to meet yuu
nd talk about things
but u think its jst a daily basis thinking i dont rearrange things jst to come there
my mum drives around eveyrwhere
dont you know shes busy?
nd i tell her i want to see you early before tutor
Look, people might look at yu nd say
wow shes hot or wow shes preety
her clothes are nicee
look yu are preety
but
that doesnt mean anything
i cant be jst friends with a preety face
all that matters is who you are inside
i have enough points to say this
do u think me nd you really are okay?
im worrying bout exams nd tests assignemnts hwk
yur there tlkaing bout this guy yur going out with whos a drug dealer
yu want to smoke when im around
how can i let you
its nt that easy to see you smoke
really
i dont hate the people that smoke
i jst dont get them
why wld they do that
nd they smoke looking like they think its cool nd nothings gnna happen until later on
not realising the consequences nd risks
you t hink the things they teach yu at school is stupid?
trust me there doing you a favour
from now on
i dont want you to smoke when im there
i dont want to be seen with a smoker
literally i dont care what people think of me but
this is beyond the limit
yur underaged as well nd yu think its okay
all cool cos yur friends are doing it too
even my mum can spot you
she says what yu wear is sometimes disturbing
nd u seem like a nice girl but
one of those typical tb looking girls around cabra
there all fucking the same
how do i know?
i see themeverday
hearing their daily conversations with each other
looking how they pull the skirts up soo high
fixing their hair every 5 seconds
srslty i dont look for these people
how can i miss them when they practically fill the cabra library
im trying to prove an obvious point that stands out infront of my life
i told yu to quit ages ago
revised all the things that will happen to you
how u reply
u give me a facelike you dont give a shit
treat me like that?
nd ive had enough
nd i know im repeating stuff but jst get this message into yur head
yur a person i prob wont ever meet again nd wish to not meet
dont blame me
its you
causing all this
do you want to be my friend or not?
honestly i dont care about yur decision
even if were not gnna be friends
ill still care about you
i jst wont warn you of anything
or tell you stuff
yu can tell someone else bout yur boyfriends nd crushes
about yur problems
everything you tell me
which isnt alot nowadays
if yu see me alone
ill be fine
maybe i rather be like that
alone
people like to be alone for a change to rethink issues
i might seem like a loner but
its worth it
We will part eventually
At the end of the lesson when our mums pick us up
u dnt need to hug me if u dnt mean it
becos i dont like it
u saying
oh i need to hug u becos if i dnt my mum will ask me whats wrong with u nd joanne
newsflash;; there is something wrong, you
# ` <3 +
Yes, Cassie i know i love you :L
(L)
# ` mylastfarewelltoCassieeN +
Monday, November 23, 2009
dearest Cassiee,
When i found out yu make it to sefton
I was really happy for yu bt also sad in a way that i'll miss yu even though we rarely talk
I know we've had our ups nd down nd somethings didnt go to well but
we let that past our mind & weve
forgave & forgot
As my last few words to you, I jst wanted to wish you the best of luck @ sefton
Ive read yur blogs nd itll be starting everything over again but youll make plenty of friends later
the beginning is the hardest but before yu know it, yu'll feel like yur already a part of sefton.
I hope everything goes well nd remember youll always be remembered by people at macfields & especially 8Smexxy
A few things i wanted to shout out before you go :L
1. yur one of the cutest people ive met
2. you'll always be tall no matter what
3. Unicorns
arerealistic (Y) if yu really believe they do (Y)
theres probably more things but my mind is too tired to function from tutor
hmm what else to say
make most of yur last weeks at macfields i guess ><
im suree most of us will keep in contact nd hopefully will as we grow older nd taller
Well i guess thats bout it i think ><
If theres more later on ill be sure to type it all down
:L
Farewell Cassiee <3
I'llMissYu x
p.s yeah i think this msg might be published abit early but ah well
TakeCare (:
# ` Sigh. +
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Everyday i go on blog just to check if yu wrote a blog back to me
I really want you to read this but i guess i jst no important enough for yu to reas
i dont want to tell you face to face becos yeah im weak nd i dont have the guts so
for a weak girl like me ill jst set you clues.
# ` annoyingsong +
i jst realised when u go to my blog page
this song plays
nd when i first heard it im like
woah wtf is that then realised it was from my blog
nd i dont know how to chnge the song
yeah i know its annoying when it comes up
so please bear with me :D
ALittleSomethingAboutMe.
Joannee Ly (:
Ex Governor Philip Kinger || Macfielder .
4teenyo Yr8
O311
adores the lasses & lads
Truonger (H)
I think princess ann is awesome
& mablecable is cool (H)
They're awesome (H):
mablee
mandah
linda
jacinda
eric
angelinaa
facebookme (H)
tonysincho
meltram
cassiee
dillon
yvonne
selina
diana
danny
#60thingsibetyoudidntknow.:
1. i gave my crush roses in yr1 ><
2. i have a 105yo greatgrandmother
3. badly burnt my ankle on a motorbike
4. split on tongue on a coffeetable when i was 3yo
5. got an earring stuck into my ear
6. loves my class, 8S
7. i think i have 2 cute gay dogs
8. swallowed a sequin
9. eaten a flower
10. i have the most weirdest & most disturbing dreams ever
11. i have a very disturbing gift
12. my power is to taste how sour something is by touching it
13. this is weird but i like the smell of the powder u put on vomit :P NOT THE VOMIT! but the powder :L
14. i was a loner in preschool
15. my favourite thing to do in preschool was to paint the cubby house with water
16. i have a guys mind (;
17. i hanged out with yr sixes in kindy (H)
18. got bullied in yr 1 cos i was really short
19. i have pulled someones pants down
20. i got a trophy when i was 3 becos i was the cutest baby in that area which was weird
21. a mean boy pushed me over in yr1 nd i scraped my whole leg
22. tasted playdough
23. i like the taste of blood
24. & tears
25. SPONGEBOBSQUAREPANTSfanatic
26. idontwatchporn even though people say i do
27. imnota lesbian either
28. my favourite pokemon is squirtle
29. i dont like futurama but i like simpsons
30. i rarely watch tv like once in a blue moon
31. hate! vegemitee -cringe-
32. cannot walk on high heels its like i needa walking stick
33. cannot stand heat i get pissed if its really hot
34. i nearly died when i got food poisoned
35. !HATE porkroll becos i vomited 8 times when i ate that
36. scared of only 2things; the death of people i love & ghosts
37. my favourite colour is aqua (:
38. ilike the grand angus better than mighty @ maccas
39. russell peters cracks me up soo bad, then comes anmol, then comes harris, then comes anthony
40. ngo juong yi jieu
41. wrong minded nd dont blame me ( ihave been influenced )
42. i have a crazy highlighter addiction
43. i got badly injured whilst trying to hit the pinata blindfolded
44. when im bored i google love images
45. OMGPOP!
46. apparently im very creative (Y)
47. i like bubbles
48. i get fascinated easily especially by the sky nd clouds
49. i have a friend whos birthday is on the same day, same month, same year, same hospital, same time as mee nd apparently his room was really close to mine
50. when iam really bored i go to random peoples fb nd look at their photos
51. i love photography
52. i love creating new things
53. loves school
54. looks forwards to monday, wednesday & saturday
55. yeah its true but i think my grandpa has more friends than me ( srsly hes popular around cabra)
56. volcom,zooyork,DC (H)
57. i have a very visable birthmark but u cnt see it
58. i want to go to japan or korea
59. likes the smell of trains
60. loves the smell of cucumbers but hates eating them -cringe-
#MyWishlist.:
volcom wallet,zoo york tshirt, new pencilcase, A's for yearly report, highlighters of every colour, low cut double tongue black & aqua chucks, nike shoes, smiggle stationery, new phone, a fish, at least B for piano exam
huge plush toy,& spongebob watch nd bag + thats all for now :D
They say the human heart beats around 2million times a minute, but i think my heart jst skipped a beat. Listen how my heart beats.